Hello! With this post, I shall officially start my 30-day blogging challenge! After leaving Singapore, it feels like I have lost touch with writing. So I hope that by doing this, I could get back on this art of expression. Meant to do this last month, on my birth-month, but there were too many commitments and I had to prioritise. Pushing it back one month would hopefully help me to manage my time better and post regularly :) The prompts I used for this challenge came from here.
Getting on with the real content of this post, I'd like to say that I'm not that much different online and offline. Whatever I post online are genuine interest and feeling, I would most likely talk about them too in real life. But of course, as much as I'd like to say I show the same image wherever, I actually subconsciously divide what I can portray in different platform. Having said that, it is more accurate to differentiate my life on this blog, other mainstream social media platforms, and in person.
The starkest difference can be seen in this very blog. I don't know why, but I always end up writing what I cannot express to even my closest friends here. There is a charm in sharing a story with an object that can't respond. There is also a charm in knowing that most people reading this are strangers. As what I have just seen in the drama "Search: WWW", it is easier to share secrets with strangers. There is no fear of judgement because we are most likely will not meet again. I know some friends actually read this blog, but it is easier to share burden indirectly. That is how this blog got filled with all of my deepest doubts, fears and sorrow. Letting go of things by writing here helps me relieve some emotional burden at that turbulent period. I usually end up sharing about the burden with friends I'm comfortable with after I come to terms with those problems anyways. It is after all better to show people the best version of you, not the one in distress.
Next, I have my social media platform, mostly Instagram and Twitter. Instagram is 99% filled with the best version of me. Twitter is mostly used as a media for expression when I'm frustrated about something, but it's not significant enough for a full-blown blog post. But then again, very few people around me still uses Twitter, so what they are getting is mostly my best version on Instagram. There goes my best memories, happy trips and events. True, I don't have the most well-thought-out feed. But it is because that is the place where I want to remember the best moments of my life.
The real me? It is at the least a combination of my personas in this blog and on Instagram. Of course, it's an over-simplification. There are more facets of me that I can't show through writing and snapshots. I may seem nonchalant, but I wonder about my friends a lot of time. I may look like a crazed fangirl, but I also keep myself grounded to reality. I keep lots of insecurity, but I also try my best to be content with what I have. Those are all me.
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