Day 2: Stuffs I'm not good at

There are so many things I'm not good at!


I can probably spend days talking about it and I still won't be done. So for the sake of this post, I will discuss the first 3 things that came to mind, which are

1. Reading situation, or in other words, being sensitive
• It's self-explanatory. There are a lot of times when I realise something is wrong after it's too late. There are a lot of times when I sense the atmosphere is off but can't pinpoint the cause. There are also a lot of times when my mouth takes action unnecessarily before my brain finish processing and end up hurting someone with words, also make my heart guilty for days. This weakness, in particular, has been the source of my predicaments one too many time. So I have been trying to fix this, but it's not very easy because it is largely subconscious working and this kind of habit is very difficult to break. Hopefully, as I grow older and wiser, I'll be better at this and eventually even be a great listening ear to those who need it. 
2. Making new friends and keeping a friendship
• Urgh. As much as friendship is one of the best wonders in this world, it is not easy. Making friends, especially in the context of a big group is definitely challenging. Just like how reactions have the best temperature and pressure to occur, making friends has optimum conditions. At least for me, it is. For now, I learned that I can make new friends pretty easily when it is already an assigned group, and it is in a manageable size, preferably long term too. Cherry on top if that group involves some kind of hardship together. Even after making friends, a new challenge appears: maintaining that friendship. Over the years, I have lost lots of friends over losing contact, or as simple as not talking to each other despite the available social media. A junior high friend I considered close at the time actually didn't remember me when I met her by chance at the campus. That incident was a slap in the face, and now I'm making a conscious effort to actually contact those who mean something to me. I sometimes also react or reply to Instagram stories of those who I haven't talked to in a while. I still do not contact them as intensively as other people would, but it's progress nonetheless!  
3. Not procrastinating
• This is such a first-world problem, and it is also a bad habit I have been having since I can remember. It's amazing how much I can procrastinate. When I know something big is coming up, the sheer size of responsibility sometimes pushes me to do other things instead. What's more astonishing is that I can even procrastinate the action I meant to do to procrastinate. Confusing, isn't it? For example, I have an assignment due next week. I would then watch an episode of Korean drama to procrastinate. And in the middle of watching that episode, I would go to Youtube to watch another video or go somewhere else to read fanfiction. Such action has cost me peace of mind and good night sleep. I am annoyed by myself for this, but again, this kind of abstract habit/skill is difficult to break because there is no form to it. If anyone knows how to not procrastinate, please tell me :')

There are many other things I'm no expert at, especially skills-wise. But these 3 above are the most obvious and actually bother me a lot. I hope someday, I'll be a better person at overcoming these weaknesses!