Day 30: A letter to yellowpostitman

Dear Jae,

If this was some kind of netflix movie or romance novel, this letter will definitely find its way to you. But this is the real world, so probably not. 

I first knew you not as yellowpostitman, but as Day6's Jae. That first line in "Congratulations" really hooked me not only into Day6, but also to you.

Day6 debuted right around my high school graduation, so I let myself buy your first mini album and tickets to your first fanmeeting in Singapore. Since then, I've fallen deeper. 

I love the music your group come out with. Every song sounds very different from each other, yet they all sound very Day6! I see that you've become more involved in the production too. Keep up the good work, so many of us are supporting all of you :)

I also admire how you can still manage to be so grounded despite all them sold-out concerts. Day6 fanbase is certainly growing and you are getting more recognition all around the world, and yet you still remember God. It's something I'd like to achieve too someday - remembering God not only in times of difficulty but also the good. 

For many people, you're maybe just the 등상 좋아하는 외국인 who tweets funny. But to me you're not only an artist but also a role model. You found your path, blaze through it, keep growing and yet still remember your roots.

Keep up your good work, enjoy your exponentially increasing lunch money, and most importantly keep being the awesome person you are :)

Yours sincerely,

Fangirl since day 1

Day 29: The one that inspires me

Inspiration comes in every shape and form. At least, that's true for sappy fanfic. That lightbulb moment can come from reading simple quotes and listening to song lyrics. It can also come from little moments to a dramatic love story unfolding in the classroom. 

However, if I have to answer about the other meaning of inspiration - the motivation to keep going - then it's a different story. If you asked me this question around 6-7 years ago, I'd probably answer Merry Riana. My father bought me her biography book and through that I found a lot of things in common. That shared situation made me think about how if she could get over her problem in even more difficulties, I should be okay too.

Now, that answer no longer applies to me. If anything, the only one that "inspires" me now is my family (or is it my pride?). Given the current condition of my family, I know I have to graduate quickly and help my parents. Clouded with that thought, of course I have to go on even when I don't want to.

So, that's that. The same thought has also been affecting decisions I make these days. One inspiration will definitely affect many other aspects of your life. 

Day 28: What is something/someone I miss?

First of all, I'd like to apologise for the non-consistent font. My laptop broke, so I have to make do with my handphone. So, until early January, the appearance of my posts will be different from my usual posts. 

Getting on to the content, what/who do I miss?

On the most superficial level, I miss home-cooked food and spicy food in general. Since coming to Busan, there is almost no food that can give the same satisfaction as McSpicy or the sinfully good "nasi sambal". Stomachache that comes the day after is worth every bite 🤤

Going a little deeper, I miss my family, especially my brother. It's been almost half a year since I last saw him, and there will be another half a year before I can see him again.  I also miss my old friends. Them being scattered all around the world makes meeting all the more difficult. Some are already working too, so schedule will be a problem even if we are in the same country.

Deep down, I think I miss simpler times. When I didn't have to worry about graduating, financial problems and whatnot. As I grow up, I become such a worrier that oftentimes I can't fully enjoy experiences that are hard to come by. It's not anybody's fault but mine. So, I guess, what I truly miss is not the times. It is my mindset from back then.

Day 27: If I could have any super power, what would it be?

When I first read today's topic, I thought of the more mainstream powers first. The ability to fly, read minds, teleport, you name it. But do you know what's the greatest of all?

Day 26: Weird things I do when I'm alone

I'm very much a normal person. I also don't have much opportunity to be alone. I can only remember one "weird" thing I did when I was the only one in the dorm room:

Recording myself 

lip-syncing Day6 song 

while

 holding the broom as a microphone

P.S. Why is it that as the days go, the posts get shorter ._.

Day 25: If I were an animal, what would I be?

Disclaimer: Am neither an animal expert nor an enthusiast, this blog post may contain a lot of inaccuracies. 

I'm probably a tortoise. 

It is famous for having their home wherever they go - I, too, am a homebody. I can spend many days at home, finding new activities regularly. The only difference is that tortoise must bring their shell everywhere as it very much a part of their body, while I still do need to go out once in a while. 

Tortoises also hide themselves in their shells upon facing danger. Inside shell = safe zone. Though I'd rather for it not to be true, I have to admit that I tend to pull myself out of uncomfortable situations. I also need a LOT of time to warm up to unknown territory, because the unknown is always scary. 

Having said that, I'd love to adopt the more positive characters of the tortoise. Just like the childhood fairytale, the tortoise was steadfast and ended up winning in a seemingly impossible race to win. That kind of steadfastness is something admirable, be it at work or in relationships with anyone. 

Day 24: How do I see myself in 10 years?

Woah, never thought that I ever have to blog about this. A few years ago, my roommate found me in our room crying. When she asked me the reason behind my tears, it was simply because I couldn't imagine the possibly bleak future.

The past 16-17 years have been filled with mostly certainty. I have school to go to. But now that I have to really start adulting, the future seems a lot more daunting. I mean, the thought of it already scared me when I was still in JC, what more now! There are so many things to sort out: job, family, house, investment and many more!

Ideally, in 10 years, I would have built a new family and work a cushy 9 to 5 job. But what I can actually imagine better is me being a housewife (I know, that's such a non-ambitious dream). Maybe it's mostly because that's what I see growing up, mothers around me are mostly housewives. Then again, there are so many variables in arriving at that future. 

Who knows what the future holds? Instead of fretting over the future, I am now trying my best to enjoy every day. Worrying doesn't solve any problem after all. 

Day 23: Somewhere I'd like to visit

After experiencing a rough 6-hour flight to Japan, my greed of seeing the world decreased a lot. Sure, if I have the means to do it, travelling the world still sounds very good. But if I have to choose only one place, there is certainly one in mind. 

Day 22: My sibling

I only have a younger brother. A teenager now, but definitely would love it if he was still my baby brother. 

Day 21: My Favourite OTP

Ooh, this is a rather controversial topic for avid shippers. For the purpose of this post, I shall choose to talk about my OTP from Reply 1988! 

Day 20: If I could invite any 10 people to a dinner, who would those be?

I thought long and hard about this. I mean, the possibilities are endless! 

Day 19: If I could have any job in the world, what would it be?

Sorry for the rather late post! Been out for almost the whole day, so I only have the time to do this at this hour. 

Day 18: What am I passionate about?

This question might as well be more difficult than the "religion" one. 

Day 17: How has my school life been throughout the years?

Throughout my more or less 20 years(!) of schooling, including pre-school, I've faced a lot of ups and downs. And in today's post, I shall tell you about the wonderful years of schooling.

Day 16: What do I collect?

Will you fancy reading a more straightforward answer? Or maybe something else spiced with feelings?

Day 15: Significant memories of my childhood

Now that I think about it, the most normal moments make the most significant memories of my childhood. (This is very random, but this sentence would have sounded a lot cooler in Korean - 생각해보니까, 가장 평범한 순간들은 가장 상당한 추억이 되었다. ). 

Day 14: Draw anything!

In this post, we shall compare my best and what apparently is my worst. 

Day 13: Favourite fictional character

This is a surprisingly difficult topic for me simply because I've never thought about it. But if I really have to choose one, I might have an interesting one. The character is from a K-drama released a few years ago. It's Dukseon from Reply 1988. 

True, she's not the brightest of the bunch. She makes silly expressions, she doesn't do very well in school, she can also be childish at times. However, she also has a lot of redeeming values. She is kind to everyone! It is a virtue that I want to see in myself but still can't really see it. She blends well with people, too! That's also something I want in myself. And most importantly, she cares a lot about the people around her. Despite her flaw, she knows what matters the most to her and cherishes them. The scene where she left supplements for her mother who is facing menopause really hit me. I hope I'd at least be as good as that for my parents too. 

Day 12: My definition of love

This is an interesting topic. No one would have a completely identical definition of love, but that's the charm of it. 

Day 11: How I feel about making friends over the Internet

That's defo not my style. BUT I do feel that it can be fun and I want to try that someday. 

To be fair, there are a lot of great people online, especially those on fandom groups. It's just that it is pretty hard for me to build relations with strangers. 

My only brush with making friends with strangers was when I was queueing for fanmeet ticket. Didn't know each other, and most probably won't ever see each other again but interacting with them was definitely a great experience. We had the same interests so conversations flowed naturally. 

Maybe someday I will have more courage to start friendship online. But not now, when I'm still trying to build bridges with old friends. 

Day 10: My favorite book

I honestly don't read as many books as I'd like. I delved too deep in the world of fanfiction that I leave the book world. Having said that, out of those that I've read there are a few that leave a lasting impression! 

Day 9 : A letter to younger me

Hello, little Vita :)

Day 8 : Views on religion

Such a heavy topic after pulling an all-nighter TT. This is also a topic I'm not very comfortable with, something I like to avoid whenever it comes up. Such discussion will most likely lead to never-ending arguments and I end up having my emotions run high. Nevertheless, I have to do it for the sake of this challenge!

Day 7: Hardest things I have ever experienced

It's very difficult to say. As I grow older, each problem poses its own unique challenges that can't really be compared to each other.

Day 6 : How I came across Blogspot and how it has changed my life

I've known Blogspot long before I actually started this blog. 

Day 5 : How important is education IMO?

Since I was very young, my parents had always told me that education is important. My mom even said that this is the only "inheritance" my parents can give. For it has been a value that has been planted in me for a long time, I still do believe that. But I also have to say that as I grow up, there is something about the world that has taught me education is not everything. 

Day 4 : My middle name and how I feel about it

Just got feedback for my thesis. There are a lot and the deadline is drawing near. I'm pretty stressed and hopefully blogging will help me let out some steam. 

As an answer to today's topic: No, I don't have any middle name. But I can still tell you a thing or two about my name!

Day 3: Top 5 pet peeves

Firstly, I would like to admit that I cheated a bit for this post. I can't think of more than 2 personal pet peeves, but I do know for sure that I get annoyed pretty often. It's just that it has to happen first before knowing that it's annoying to me (?)

Day 2: Stuffs I'm not good at

There are so many things I'm not good at!

Day 1 : Personal vs Internet Life

Hello! With this post, I shall officially start my 30-day blogging challenge! After leaving Singapore, it feels like I have lost touch with writing. So I hope that by doing this, I could get back on this art of expression. Meant to do this last month, on my birth-month, but there were too many commitments and I had to prioritise. Pushing it back one month would hopefully help me to manage my time better and post regularly :) The prompts I used for this challenge came from here.