I Don't Wanna Be Anybody's Trophy Wife

I don't want to be anybody's 'trophy' wife. 
I'm not saying that I don't want to marry someone I love in the future.
I'm not saying that I don't want to look pretty for my future husband, whoever he will be.
I'm saying that I want to be a wife that is more than someone to be shown off. 

이사 (Move)

Gone are the traces of me from my hostel room (Okay, except that cute yellow dustbin from Daiso).

My First Ever Fanmeet/Concert Thingy!

Ohmahgahd!!!! I finally get to see Day6 in real life :D In this blogpost I will share my experience before, during and after the fanmeet itself. I must say, some things are not as what I had expected. I don't know whether it's because the fanbase is still so young or whether it's because I'm just too clueless. Even so, Singapore fans are still very lucky to get to see them so soon! I mean, 3 months old can only do so much, but our fandom is already pretty huge! Anyways, let's start with the sharing thingy :)

Drama Review : 발칙하게 고고 (Sassy Go Go / Cheer Up)

Yay, I'm back with another drama review! Now that the hell week of A-level has ended I can spend some time to sit down and pen down (more like type actually) what I thought about this drama :) I'm actually very tempted to give some spoilers because there are so much interesting moments to share. But don't fret because I promise I won't do such atrocity. I accidentally read a spoiler somewhere and it kinda make the drama lost some suspense and I don't want you to experience the same horrible thing. Anyways, let's get down to business :)

Insecurities

I'm not supposed to be writing this, really. The start of A-level is only in 4 freaking days, which is super frightening. As the start of this battle is approaching really quickly and the end of October is drawing near, my mind can't help but stir up some insecurities (that have actually started brewing at the beginning of the month).

Sorry

Sorry, the previous post  was totally irrational and purely because of the spur of the moment.

Lonely

I've been very lonely lately. Exam stress, anticipation for scholarship interview call, and, well, the fact that no one is sitting beside me right now are the reasons to this predicament right now. I don't want to feel lonely now simply because A-level's coming soon, really really really soon in fact. But feelings come and go as they like without warning.

One Family Unbroken

Today was the farewell assembly in my school. As I sat in the cultural centre with my classmates, the reality finally really dawned on me. I’m graduating soon, A-level is in 20 something days, and we’ll be parting ways soon. As I said hello in passing to one of my HC friends along the corridor this afternoon, I realized that would be one of the last chances that I have to do the same thing. Those familiar faces will soon be replaced with strangers again. As one of my OGL friends surprised/scared me (it’s his form of greeting to me -.-) this afternoon, I realized that too might be one of the last few if not the last time I get to experience that unique acknowledgement. This all feels too surreal. The last of everything in JC is happening very very soon.  

19

I can’t really believe that a year has passed. I can even remember my birthday last year: I went to Nuansa, tried QQ rice for the first time in my life, came back to the hostel to a cheesecake from my roommate and also some post its stuck on the wall in our room. It was simple and nothing much, but it meant a lot to me because I actually thought that no one really remembers the day.

So yes, I’m 19 now. The age when I’m not supposed to drink Hi-Lo Teen anymore. Anyways, instead of linking my age to a song, which I really cannot find by the way, this post will be an appreciation post for the many people who have walked into my life the 4 years I’m in Singapore. Well, simply because this might be my last birthday here. Anyways, here goes:

The Day has come!

Yes, the day has come for yet another group to 'ruin my life'. Day6, JYP's newest band officially debuted on 7 September 2015 with their first mini album 'The Day'!

The Pencil

This is one of the post where I become some deep poetic thinker or something like that. This thought just suddenly came to me few days ago when I was holding this one particular mechanical pencil of mine. This pencil is something that I've been holding dear since I was in primary 5 which was pretty long time ago. It is particularly special to me now because of the one who gave it to me, because of what it represents: our friendship. Now, looking at the pencil, I am always reminded of that. A relationship so beautiful yet so fleeting. 

Random thought : I have become a hormonal teenager

This is a super random thought that popped out while I was reading a manga. I think I have become a full-fledged hormonal teenager :p

I'm somewhat obsessed over some Korean guys with impossibly good looks (and heavenly voices).
I prefer drawing guys than girls (which is a contrast from me 8 years ago when I first took a liking in drawing manga characters).
I'm somewhat despo for a boyfriend too!

So yeah, that's all. Random thought of the day!

Doubting

So, I've blogged about my seniors' prom last year, the one that I got to be the I/C. While this event was the most memorable for me, and I actually mention it quite a few times in my personal statement and SGC, apparently it was not for many other people. It took me so long to actually accept that the event was a success. But maybe, I have actually really failed that day. 

Being honest

Yes, I admit that I'm as despo as any single people out there. Honestly, I, too, want a boyfriend. Don't judge first, I think it's normal because human is a hot-blooded creature after all :p. That's not the only reason, though. Seeing couples in school and the hostel always make me think when my time comes for that. My parents don't help either with their constant teasing.

Tired

Is it okay to feel tired now? It is only the 4th week of term 3 and I feel like dying, which is bad. I really really want to just let loose from everything for a while, but do I have the right to? A-level starts in about 100 days and that's not much time left to master everything. 

15 Sundays

That is approximately the amount of time that I have before A-levels. 15 Sundays to go to church that I've been going to these past 1.5 years. 15 Sundays to go there with my friends. 15 Sundays sounds not much, but believe me, the fact that these are the last 15 Sundays that I can do the things that I've been doing makes it very hard to believe and accept. 

Drama Review : 후아유 - 학교 2015 (Who Are You - School 2015)

Yay, I'm back with another drama review after a pretty long time \(^.^)/ I wanted to cover this review around 2 or 3 weeks ago but I must restrain myself because I had exam! To pay off for the late review, this time I'll try to cover as much aspects as possible so that you can decide whether you want to watch this :) So, let's get down to business!

A Small Lesson from Old Drama

I just watched the 5th episode of an old Korean drama "Autumn in My Heart", which is very wrong because I have exam tomorrow. But anyway, one thing that I learned from that one episode is that our mind always goes for the best rational choice, but in the end the heart will always yearn for what it truly needs.

So yups, that's it for today's post! A small but valuable lesson :) I need to go study heheh

The Concept of Soulmate?!

As we grow up, we are always fed with the concept of true love or soulmate. Within the first few moments of encounter, an unknown spark erupts in our hearts. That’s how you know that he or she is the one.

But does it really exist?

The Broken Piggy Bank

The title of this post may come across to be very random but trust me, to me, this is actually something significant (at least I think it is). It is one incident that may never be forgetten by me even though it was something trivial to many people.

The Cost for Fame

As you all know, I have come to like BTS for quite some time now. While the fandom is in a somehow celebratory mood after their first wins and their 700 days celebration, we can't really enjoy ourselves because some problems like the alleged saejaegi (a lot of K-netizens demand for the buyers' receipts but seriously, who keeps their receipts? -.-) and the 'Loser' incident. Reading various articles about all these unnecessary got me thinking about the cost for fame. 

Haven't Met You Yet ♪

Woohoo, thank God it's Friday! :D Since I've got a little time to waste, might as well post a little something here :)

Anyways, when girls talk, there is this particular topic that always comes up : ideal guy. After a lot of "I don't know"s, I now kinda know what kind of guy that I want to be with (Not in terms of physical look, but more in terms of character I guess). 

Today was a good day ❤❤❤

My legs are tired after walking more than 15km. Piles of homework is waiting for me. Money in my wallet is simply non-existent after today. Despite all that, today was a good day :D I can't stop smiling, every fiber of my body wants to dance so badly, my heart is bursting with bubbles of happiness. That's the wonder of a simple friendly gesture and a "take care..." can do to me. 

Missed

Apparently I've been missing a lot of people nowadays... On top of my family and friends back at home, I also miss this special group of people. The chances I get to meet them are pretty rare, these chances really come only once in a blue moon. And today, I was too late to catch one of those chances. I feel a bit regretful, I don't know when this chance will come again considering that we don't live on the same land anymore. 

However, this has taught me a lesson. It's okay to miss some people, especially when you have gone through thick and thin together, face the same predicament and all that. It's okay, it's not a sin. In fact, it is a timely reminder for us to cherish those who are still around. 

Night Changes ☾

To my lovely friends and family:

Does it ever drive you crazy 

Just how fast the night changes

Everything that you've ever dreamed of 

Disappearing when you wake up

But there's nothing to be afraid of

Even when the night changes

it will never change me and you*

Officially Missing You

Loneliness. Having some company sometimes is not enough to erase this negative emotion. And maybe this is the catalyst of the feeling of missing someone. And today, I miss this certain person so much. It's not that I've never missed that person in these past few months, but the feeling of longing happens to intensify today in particular.

I guess this is goodbye

To my friend, Nico.