Officially Missing You

Loneliness. Having some company sometimes is not enough to erase this negative emotion. And maybe this is the catalyst of the feeling of missing someone. And today, I miss this certain person so much. It's not that I've never missed that person in these past few months, but the feeling of longing happens to intensify today in particular.

It has always been difficult for me to be close to someone. It has always been difficult for me to feel secure all the time. It has always been difficult for me to express my feeling to someone. These things were and are not my forte. But, this certain someone succeeded breaking those barriers.

I am not THAT close to this person I’m talking about. We just happen to have a common predicament every week and that was really how I got used to this person’s presence. I never thought that this would mean so much to me. Once again, I’ve taken something, or rather someone, for granted. Now that this person is not here anymore, apart from me with the seas separating us, I’ve finally appreciated his presence in the one year that we could spend together.

And now I’m officially missing him, as cheesy as it is. I think I don’t have romantic intentions or anything. Everything is just platonic, even the word ‘platonic’ is already an overstatement. But I truly miss his company and his weird antics.

Finally, I would actually give you a link to the song “Officially Missing You Too” by Geeks ft. Soyu. But I think, this song I’m going to share with you represents my feeling my better though not perfectly. So, here’s "Sofa" by Crush.

 I couldn’t fill it up alone

The longing that spread throughout the room

I couldn’t place it in my heart

Because of that damn hope

Sitting here alone is bigger torture

I try to escape

But I’m looking for you again*

*Credits to pop!gasa for translation