Lonely

I've been very lonely lately. Exam stress, anticipation for scholarship interview call, and, well, the fact that no one is sitting beside me right now are the reasons to this predicament right now. I don't want to feel lonely now simply because A-level's coming soon, really really really soon in fact. But feelings come and go as they like without warning.

Maybe it's hormone imbalance, but the real problem is that I'm particularly very irritable and feel like shit everytime I'm alone these days. Why do I have to be alone?  Actually the question is more like 'why must I feel lonely when there are a lot of single people all around me?' I don't know the real answer.

Is it because I'm boring? Is it because I'm a bad friend? Is it because I'm too demanding? Is it because I'm annoying? Or is it just the mere fact that I'm a girl? Why do my friends always leave me for another person (read : boy(friend))?

I actually told one of my friends that being left by a friend due to BGR is super normal simply because in the future we will be doing the exact same thing. It is something that is just bound to happen, simply inevitable. We may not be happy for ourselves for now, but we have to be happy for our friend who has managed to find one of their missing pieces in their lives. Who are we to have the right to deprive them of their happiness?

I'm sorry if this post comes off as something very confusing. I just need to get this negative feeling of my chest. And now I have to go back to writing Econs essay. 

I just hope that whoever and wherever you are, you won't feel lonely. Because I certainly know for sure, feeling lonely sucks.

FYI, you should not listen to this song when you're lonely. It will make you sad (but it is still a super beautiful song that I can't help but listen to)

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