Being honest

Yes, I admit that I'm as despo as any single people out there. Honestly, I, too, want a boyfriend. Don't judge first, I think it's normal because human is a hot-blooded creature after all :p. That's not the only reason, though. Seeing couples in school and the hostel always make me think when my time comes for that. My parents don't help either with their constant teasing.

But then, when I think about the prospect of having a relationship, it seems absurd and pretty impossible for me. If I consider using cost-benefit analysis, as what my GP teacher likes to call it, the cost definitely outweigh the benefit! Well, it is true that a relationship is maybe just what I need to cure the intermittent loneliness. But, A-level's coming really really soon and I barely have time even for myself, to just rest and relax without the thought of studying linger at the back of my mind. How can I make time for someone else when I can't even make time for myself? Having a relationship means I have to be responsible for maintaining the connection, for keeping the guy's and my heart intact. The thing is, achieving such goals require effort and time. Both of which I can't afford to give. 

On top of that, there's the huge risk of having long distance relationship after graduation. Honestly, as much as possible, I don't want to stay in Singapore. I want to experience something different by going to another country. And I believe that quite a lot of people that I know are thinking the same thing. That's why the probability of LDR is very big. We all know that there are only so much LDR can survive the harsh taunt of distance and time difference. We all also know that the higher you fly, the more painful the fall is. So, I do myself a favour by not entangling myself into a relationship now, just to save myself from a potential nasty heartbreak. 

While I'm open to possibilities, these are some of the things that I consider before throwing myself into my very first commitment to someone else. So, my dearest roommates (if you ever read this), now you know why I don't want to pursue anyone that you're trying to match me with :p Let's just continue with our despo and galau fest for now~