for lovers who hesitate

The title of this entry probably does not quite fit the content. Chose it just because it's a good song and I am a person full of hesitations at this point. 

2024 - Growing pains

Heya! This entry comes late again, this time with rather good reasons. Long story short, the house was flooded on Christmas last year and it ruined the door to my parents' room. Mom ended up being my roommate for almost 2 months, and it didn't feel quite right to write this while she was in the room. I was then very much distracted by dramas and animes 😬 I really want to publish this before Q1 ends, so here we go!

28 - Learning

Hi! It's been more than a quarter since I've updated anything here 😬 But it's finally time for the annual birthday post!

Blanket Kick

My innocent blanket has been getting some undeserved kicks. And I'm trying to figure out how to start writing the why. My head's been spinning from the excitement, fear, and whatever this unidentifiable feeling is. I just feel like it's worth writing down because it's been a while since I felt this way. 

2023 - A roller coaster

Hi! While it is not exactly the new year anymore, it is somewhat still in the Chinese New Year period and I guess we can roll with that 😬 

27!

Hello from KL! On a short getaway, I finally have time to sit down and write this down 😌

Ugly Feelings

At times like this, I'm very grateful this public blog is very much a safe space for me. Only less than a handful of people I know IRL actually know and read this. The seed of bitterness I've been feeling for quite a while finally rears its ugly head. I need to organise my thoughts. There is no point in writing this other than painting me as a selfish person. No one, not even my close friends and family, can look me in the eye and say that I'm a kind person. And I guess that's okay, at least I'm a selfish person with somewhat organised thoughts. Don't read further if you don't want to ruin your idea of me. 

(Un)enchanted

Howdy! It's a rare occasion to blog somewhat close to my latest post. But I just can't take it anymore, need to pour this feeling out somewhere. 

2022 - A year of firsts

It's me. Hi!

Super late post, what's new 😅 This was meant to be a post in December. In fact, I actually started outlining in November. But here we are, at the end of Q1 with an end-of-year/new-year post. 

26 - Adulting

The post this time comes much later than usual. But hey, at least it's still in the same month 😅

Where and when did it all go wrong?

Hi! It's been quite a while and I hope life is treating you well. I know there are only two people who consistently read this blog, so let me write this one as if I'm talking to you two. 

To be honest, April was not that good to me. I was about to unload and write last week but decided against it because of time constraints and, well, I was sick. So, I'm here today with a clearer headspace so (hopefully) I can see things more objectively. 

Happy Ending

 I love movies/dramas with happy endings. 

Happy ending, to me, means the lost get found, or it is at least hinted that the main characters' relationship works out, perhaps even where the superhero managed to save the day (albeit the great damage the city suffers). I used to ask myself "when will I get my own happy ending?". But the more I think about it, isn't this happy ending we've been imagining just means a start to yet another chapter?

인생의 조각들

 I made a "new" blog! Basically, it will contain a Korean translation of new blog posts from here. It definitely won't be a direct translation because Korean is still hard for me. But, if you're interested in learning Korean with me, or just curious about my Korean skills, or even want to check and help me improve please visit this link. 

Thank you 😊

2021

The thing that must not be named is here longer than it is welcome. For that, I thought I wouldn't have much to write for a look back on 2021. Unexpectedly the year gave me a lot of time to think amid all the tedium, and so here we are again. 

25 - An ongoing quarter life crisis?

Weeee, another milestone this year. I'm now officially a quarter century! This is also the second (and hopefully the last) birthday during the pandemic. Anyways, let's get onto the post.

This blog is 10 years old!

Wow, how time flies! Never thought something I started as a 15-year-old will still survive after 10 years, but here we are. 

This blog started as somewhat a desperate effort to improve my English just a few months shy of my departure to Singapore. At that time, a land of the unknown. Then, without realizing it, Singapore became a home and soon the blog evolved from a collection of attempts at essays to a personal diary. After a few years, I had to come back home for good. I guess, my writings start to be bleaker (?) because I felt like I under-achieved and what-not. But one thing remains the same, this blog is a place of comfort for me (and a silent witness to my English prowess progress and regress). 

With 10 years under its belt, this blog has been together with me through many recorded and unrecorded moments. It's only appropriate to celebrate by recalling the decade through song, in true puzzle-of-the-life fashion. 

Slowing Down in a Busy World

 Sounds counter-intuitive, but hear me out. 

The Book of Us: Negentropy - Chaos Swallowed up in Love

Hi, long time no see! 

As we all know, the thing-that-must-not-be-named has been affecting our lives for more than a year. The prolonged limited contact with people and work make my mind go to places when I'm listening to songs. Since Day6 recently released the last instalment of "The Book of Us" series, I feel like it's a good occassion to share the scenarios my mind came up with at the first few listens. This is an uncoventional review, but I hope this is enough to celebrate Day6 music (especially since it will be a while until we can get another full group release)! Give them a listen too and see whether you can get the same vibes from these songs :) 

A Bitter Day

Before anything, please don't worry! Everything is fine 😁 

I just want to write this after watching episode 3 of "Her Private Life". It brought me back to times I thought were the worst days of my life. These were the days when I probably cried harder than when 5-year-old me fell down headfirst (!) after jumping around on my parent's bed. 

2020

 How was the shit-show called "2020" for you? Before the first month of the new year ends, I'd like to think about some things I learnt or thought last year. Here are a few: