Looking back a little to the year I was 25, it did not really turn out the way I wanted it to. At first, I wanted to commemorate it in some big way (like maybe posting some kind of writings everyday for a year on my Tumblr) but none really stuck. I also wanted to learn a bit more about this and that. In reality, work has been so draining I don't really have much energy left to learn/study what I wanted.
Having said that, I think I finally realize what makes an adult-aged person truly an adult. The hallmark, the quintessential qualities of a mature person are being able to take care of others and knowing when and what battles to pick. Life is never as simple as flipping one's hand, so I guess having those two qualities while still able to be a functioning member of society is truly a remarkable feat.
Maybe being a true adult will be my main concern in the coming year. Somehow, I'm not too bothered by what I mentioned in previous year's post. While the fear can never go away completely, it's at least not at the forefront anymore. And so, I hope for more courage, patience, and wisdom to face whatever will come my way in the coming year.
As for work, I don't want to be that person who quiet quits(?). I feel like everybody around me are giving 120% and I only 90%. Great for better work-life balance, but I guess it subconsciously weighs on my mind. A few days ago, I dreamt about narrowly missing a train and somehow when I woke up I just felt like it has something to do about work.
Also, in just the few days I have been 26, I've gotten quite a few misfortune. I caught a pretty bad case of cold, which even raised a false alarm of COVID. Also ruined a whole car tyre because I was pretty much unlucky and very much stupido at that time :') Hoping these 2 incidents finished up most of my share of misfortune this year.
On a lighter note, whatever predicament/hesitation this is, it will pass as time goes. The answer may not be what I expected, but such is life: there are no 2 completely identical case. And as you and I navigate these unique circumstances, we'll probably marvel again at just how fast the night changes.
As always, don't expect stellar writing from me. I'm just hoping this will be a good way for me in the future to remember the past. It will also be great, however, if somehow you (whoever you are) enjoy reading this or even find comfort in knowing there is another lost soul out here :) Thanks for reading~
About the 120% vs 90%, could it be that you're experiencing the impostor syndrome? Anyway, happy birthday! I do find comfort in reading your writings, I'm cheering you on for the year ahead. :)
ReplyDeleteGosh, so bad at maintaining this blog eventhough I'm the owner. Just read your comment. Many thanks for the wishes :)
DeleteAs this reply is way overdue anyways, also wishing you a super long lasting relationship with the gf! :D