Wistful Thinking

I should be sleeping by now. 
I have to wake up in about 6 hours time, and a long day ahead is waiting. But these thoughts have to be channeled before it's going to eat me up for the next few days. 

I miss my friends, especially those I made in Singapore. As I was watching a show displaying a trip to Bali, I started remembering that Bali trip last year. Those were some of the happiest days in my life, even though not all moments were perfect. The friends I went there with, were also people who share similar work ethics with me, if not even better. 

These past few days, I have had a rude awakening that I no longer have the luxury to meet these sort of people anymore. The 4 years of education in Singapore has shaped me into a somewhat more disciplined person and more appreciative in some ways. And these are the values that I also see in many of my friends while studying there. Now, I deal with totally different people all the time. While some of them are good friends to have fun with, I absolutely cannot respect their work ethics and their attitude towards lecturers or speakers in general. They are too different from what I value in my life. People may say that I'm too rigid or old-fashioned, but this truly bothers my mind every so often. 

Sometimes I wish that I can still study in Singapore, despite the stress level. I miss my friends, I miss the fact that everyone takes responsibility for their work. Anyways, there is no use in crying over spilled milk. I'm in this situation because of my own fault 2-3 years ago. So, I have to suck it up and adapt. That's all I can say. At least, this is off of my mind.