Death of Democracy

Indonesia has been a democratic nation ever since I can remember. Its democracy is a bit younger than myself, thus there is still a lot of space for improvement. But, rather than improving and flourishing it has seen its slow death. It almost feels like we're walking towards the second "New Order" era. 

Human

These few days I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster ride. Like not those scary kinds of rides, it’s the kiddy ride. You know, those with not so high peaks? This is mostly because of exam stress I guess, every little thing can cause a high fluctuation of emotion. Despite all these, I found myself a new source of happiness, I guess.

Two Different Worlds

I'd like to blame this on exam anxiety. My final exam for this year will start tomorrow and I start thinking about things that I shouldn't be thinking now. Especially knowing that tomorrrow is GP paper and I'm pretty sure I'm not ready for it.

Anyways, I was actually studying. But I decided to go on Instagram to search for this picture that my friend posted quite a few weeks ago because it has a quote that I might use for the exam (yeah, I know all of this is excuses). Somehow, I looked at his 'Following' list. It kind of appaled me seeing that 90% of people in that list are strangers to me. We were classmates, our mutual friends on Facebook were a lot a few years back. We knew everything that happened to each other. We shared the same memories, seeing that we were classmates for 2 years. But all of that has come to an end. We are now in two different worlds.

No, I'm not saying any of us is superior from the other. Even though experiences that we go through in Indonesia and Singapore sure will be different (much much different, in fact), they are both precious nonetheless. I'm saying that we are in two different worlds because we don't have any common stories. Should we meet, I won't understand some of the things that he is saying simply because I don't go through the same thing and I also don't have the privilege to know the same group of people.

I'm really sad about this. Sometimes I wonder what could happen if I never come to Singapore. Would our friendship stay strong? Would I find another group of friends for myself? I never really know, I don't even have the chance to try living the world that my old friends are living now.

Nonetheless, I wish them all the best and happiness, even though we're all in two different worlds now.

Damn You, Metastasis !!!

"You are diagnosed with cancer". That one sentence from the doctor could make everyone's world came crashing down. To the one diagnosed, this would be like a death sentence, especially after she knew that the damned cancer was already at a very late stage.

Oblivion

“Augustus, perhaps you’d like to share your fears with the group.”

“My fears?”

“Yes.”

“I fear oblivion,” he said without a moment’s pause.