“Augustus, perhaps you’d like to share your fears with the group.”
“My fears?”
“Yes.”
Here I am, quoting another part of John Green's best-seller book, "The Fault in Our Stars". I love it simply because the book really made me think about life when I was reading it.
Anyways, let's get back to the topic. I believe everyone has a fear of oblivion to a certain extent. Some may have it so minor that they think oblivion is nothing to them. I, too, fear oblivion. It's not that I want to leave some big impact to the world because I know that it is barely possible although not impossible. I don't really like it when people who know me actually pretend that I do not exist even when I am right in front of their eyes. It makes me feel really small and insignificant.
The song "If I Die Young" by The Band Perry brought up a really good but confusing point about human. They said, "funny when you're dead how people start to listen", which I think is true. I suddenly remember about this because of the recent car accident that caused the death of EunB, a member a Korean girl group "Ladies' Code". Ladies Code' is fairly new in the k-pop world, they debuted only last year in 2013. Even so, they haven't managed to capture the hearts of the majority of k-poppers. Many people knew they exist but never really tried to listen to their songs. But now that a member passed away, people started listening to them and even managed to make their song "I'm Fine Thank You" ranked first in several music charts (it's a really nice song, btw).
We really don't know when we are going to die, or when our loved ones will pass. My one and only grandma took her last breath in Indonesia when my school's yearly cross-country run ended, after I had fun. I was really sad, yes. But it was kind of expected and there was no point in prolonging her suffering. She was a loving mother to her children and caring grandmother to her grandchildren. She didn't make it big, after all, she didn't even finish primary school. However, she will forever stay in our minds and hearts. For me, I had many fond memories with her back when she was still very healthy. And for that, I'm really really grateful that I still got to know my grandma. One day, all her relatives will be gone and no one will remember her, or me, or you readers. But that's okay because during her lifetime people whom she cared about also loved her back.
My point is that you don't need to do big things to live. It's okay to fear oblivion, it's totally normal. I always go about in life trying to accept whatever condition I am in. But that in itself is not sufficient. I want to try to just live harmoniously with those around me. They may not remember me, but at least the fond remembrance of the experience together can make me and them happy. No one is perfect and thus there is no point trying to please everyone to make them remember you. Let's do our best and live our lives to the fullest ^^
*poster and quotes are not mine~
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