Passion and Dreams

Hi. It's been quite a while since I last wrote in. For some reason or another, I feel like my life has been pretty bland. Everyday is just another busy day packed with meeting, assignments, and the things I do to avoid doing them (eg. watching drama or shows in general). I haven't felt emotions so intense I need to spill them in the form of writing, it has been... almost as plain as vanilla ice cream. But today, I was moved to write these because of some things that I will mention later on. 


I was heavily invested in Produce 101 season 2 these past few months. At first, it was just for fun. I was curious because so many people discussed about it on Twitter, Instagram, and pretty much everywhere else. Now that it ends, I have some "withdrawal symptoms". It feels empty now that I don't have anything to look forward to every Friday night. So, what else can I do than watching related contents? Looking back on past episodes, watching fanmade videos about their moments in the audition program truly made me think. Most of those boys are so young, half of them are younger than me, some are around my little brother's age. Some of them are at the age where people would expect them to have steady income. And yet, with all these circumstances, these people work very hard even just to take a peek at their dreams. 

Besides Produce 101, I have been binge-watching Fight for My Way (starred by Park SeoJoon and Kim JiWon) these past 3 days. This drama in particular is painfully close to reality in many aspects I can't help think about the people around me and my life. The characters in the drama all have dreams, just like we all do. Despite the rejections, struggle and judging glances from bystanders they still stand strong and have a go at their seemingly unachievable dreams. 

The boys of Produce 101 and the characters in the drama all live passionately and fiercely. Whatever challenge that may come in their way, they take them head on. Worries and doubts may surface but those do not stop them from believing in their hope and ambition. I envy them. I, too, want to live as passionately as those people do. 

My classmates and I feel like we are in the wrong place. We simply study accounting because we do not know our choices. And when we do know where our hearts lie, those are relatively irrational (if compared to the secure future accounting  promises) or unattainable given the conditions we are in. Perhaps, we don't have the luxury to take baby steps figuring out our real dreams. But does that mean we cannot live courageously like them? Taking risks for what may be worth our entire life time? Maybe, just maybe, we may not be working our dream jobs. Then again, we still have so many other things waiting to be figured out. Partner, house, whatever it is, we still have so many things to be passionate about. With this in mind, let's all live passionately with little regrets.