I left my old school when I was only in 8th grade, I haven't even graduated from junior high at that time. From then, I keep on thinking that I am just an eight-grader, even now at seventeen years old. Well, I am pretty much stuck in the past. I still can't embrace the fact that I'm supposed to be an eleven-grader in Indonesia, just like all my friends. They all have moved on easily and I'm pretty sure that they've made a whole bunch of new friends whom I didn't even know existed before. Surprisingly (or not), some are already involved in boy-girl relationship. All of these seem queer to me, I mean I feel that it was only yesterday we sing Taylor Swift songs in the classroom and now everything has changed.
Actually, I only started to think about this after reading people's reaction on Twitter about how EXO and Infinite respond to each other's performance during MAMA. I believe it is very suffocating that they have to show their smile 24/7 or good reaction even though they are tired and bored. They are human too, not some gods. It is very understandable that they show that kind of expression.
Infinite has just finished their concert in America and yet they still have to attend the award show and perform. We all also know how people in SM entertainment must train hardcore especially before some kind of special performances. They are tired, which is why they cannot smile 24/7 just as the media would like it. Besides that, being in the k-pop industry doesn't necessarily mean that they have to like every single song in the k-pop industry, right?
They are pretty much stuck in the situation. Living up their dreams as singer, rapper, dancer, and whatever it is means that they are also signing up for a life where they are expected to be happy and cheerful all the time, which is pretty much impossible because they are also normal human like you and me. Not only that, every aspect in their life is being scrutinized by the media. They don't really have privacy anymore. Moreover, even a little slip may tremendously affect their career and in turn their private life. After all these sacrifices, they still have to train very hard to show the best performances even if they are tired or sick. Maybe in some point of time, they may lose their passion towards their profession because of all the demands.
I have a confession to make. In one point in time, a few years ago, I really wanted to be a singer. Crazy, eh? A girl who scores well in school wants to be a singer. Of course, I'm sane enough not to be a real singer, I only become a closet singer in my room. Well, I'm pretty much also stuck in the situation. Quite a few months ago, I told my aunt that I wanted to be a rapper because I'm really into rapping these days. She was speechless and all she could do was giving me the WTF look. See, me being any kind of performer is not something that people around me would expect (or encourage).
I am further discouraged from being a singer when I fall into the k-pop world. I can see how much the k-pop idols have sacrificed to try reaching their dreams. Singer is also a profession. But then, there are also a lot of side consequences when one sign up being a singer. Hours of training, forcing to smile despite fatigue, loss of privacy, and a whole long list of other things. However, singers must be able to withstand these consequences if they want to stay in the industry. I personally think it is really not fair how this profession must have a lot more consequences than jobs behind the desk.
OMG, I'm sorry I ended up talking about other things that doesn't seem to relate to the title. But well, I guess it's just the way I have to talk about being stuck in the past and situation.
I have a confession to make. In one point in time, a few years ago, I really wanted to be a singer. Crazy, eh? A girl who scores well in school wants to be a singer. Of course, I'm sane enough not to be a real singer, I only become a closet singer in my room. Well, I'm pretty much also stuck in the situation. Quite a few months ago, I told my aunt that I wanted to be a rapper because I'm really into rapping these days. She was speechless and all she could do was giving me the WTF look. See, me being any kind of performer is not something that people around me would expect (or encourage).
I am further discouraged from being a singer when I fall into the k-pop world. I can see how much the k-pop idols have sacrificed to try reaching their dreams. Singer is also a profession. But then, there are also a lot of side consequences when one sign up being a singer. Hours of training, forcing to smile despite fatigue, loss of privacy, and a whole long list of other things. However, singers must be able to withstand these consequences if they want to stay in the industry. I personally think it is really not fair how this profession must have a lot more consequences than jobs behind the desk.
OMG, I'm sorry I ended up talking about other things that doesn't seem to relate to the title. But well, I guess it's just the way I have to talk about being stuck in the past and situation.
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