Yesterday...

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday

Yesterday - The Beatles

Ah, the past always makes me think how my life was so so easy, I had my family around me, friends with the same view and language. I practically had no significant worries. I just live my happily, smiling and laughing everyday.

Today, I can say that I'm a "dead man walking". I never really look forward to tomorrow because honestly there is nothing to be excited about. Tests and homework awaits ahead. And we all know, that those things are huge turn-offs. Not only that I kinda dislike this kind of work, these also brings me worry. What if I can't finish all these? Will the teacher mark and scold me? Will I be able to graduate well?

I was not a popular girl in my old school. It was enough for me to be known by some people, by my classmates and closest friends. Even though not many people know me, at least they will remember me with positive image. Now, the condition is still the same, not many people know me. I'm just someone you can pass by like a ghost. But, for those who know me, they will remember me as the most lethargic girl in class, falling asleep in almost every class. Some teachers can actually remember my name because I've slept during their classes before. 

Yes, my troubles seemed so far away yesterday, in my past. Now it seems like there is never ending challenges and problem. The only things that really keep me going on are support my family and a bit of entertainment from the k-pop industry that can refresh my mind at least a little bit. I do appreciate the presence of my friends, especially those who are in the same boat with me as we can understand each other's feeling better.

Well, yeah. This is how I feel about my life right now. I'm still trying to finish this almost unsolvable puzzle. I can just pray that everything will end up okay :)