Music Time! I Almost Do by Taylor Swift

Taylor Swift’s new album ‘Red’ has knocked some sense of realization to me. Well, it’s more like one of its songs. As always, Taylor Swift succeeded to portray her feelings through songs. This one particular song is so simple yet can make us, the listeners, feel and understand deeply what she means. Well, at least I do because a similar thing happened to me too, I have been in a situation where I want to say that ‘I almost do’.

Well, as usual, the booklet of the album provides some clues for us about the background of the songs. For this one, Taylor Swift said she ‘wrote this (s0ng) instead of calling’. This clue is pretty much similar to the lyrics of the song, this song was written simply to say that she had some hesitation to call someone, in this case one of her ex-beaus. Why should she hesitate (It’s only a call anyway)? The lyrics have provided the answer, she “can’t say hello” because she can’t “risk another goodbye”. I believe that everyone are completely aware that goodbyes are always the hardest, especially when it comes to your loved ones.

I believe this doesn’t only happen to Taylor Swift.  I suppose, this short speech often grace our lips, or at least on the tip of our tongue. We may have been trapped in a circumstances that doesn’t allow us to see our loved ones, forget about seeing them, communicating is a problem already. To tell you the truth, I’ve been in this situation for almost a year! I want to chat with my old friends. It’s not that easy… I believe that they have made new friends who are better than me. It’s not that I don’t make new friends, the feeling that I get when I’m with them is just different. Not only that, I fully realize that they have new concerns, like the increasing expectations from school and the piling assignments. I don’t want to be a pain in the neck. Besides all these, I also want my family. I want to talk with my mum for hours and watch my brother grow, I miss the sound that my dad’s motorcycle makes when he comes back home. This seems so irrational knowing that talking on the phone will bore a hole in my pocket, watching my brother grow is kind of an impossible dream as I can’t be by his side everyday.

 

I’ll tell you one thing, if I don’t call or chat my friends, my family, it’s not that I’ve “either moved on or hate” them but it’s because I have taken everything under thoughtful thinking. It actually “takes everything in me not to call” and “I hope you know that every time I don’t, I almost do”.