Day 30: A letter to yellowpostitman

Dear Jae,

If this was some kind of netflix movie or romance novel, this letter will definitely find its way to you. But this is the real world, so probably not. 

I first knew you not as yellowpostitman, but as Day6's Jae. That first line in "Congratulations" really hooked me not only into Day6, but also to you.

Day6 debuted right around my high school graduation, so I let myself buy your first mini album and tickets to your first fanmeeting in Singapore. Since then, I've fallen deeper. 

I love the music your group come out with. Every song sounds very different from each other, yet they all sound very Day6! I see that you've become more involved in the production too. Keep up the good work, so many of us are supporting all of you :)

I also admire how you can still manage to be so grounded despite all them sold-out concerts. Day6 fanbase is certainly growing and you are getting more recognition all around the world, and yet you still remember God. It's something I'd like to achieve too someday - remembering God not only in times of difficulty but also the good. 

For many people, you're maybe just the 등상 좋아하는 외국인 who tweets funny. But to me you're not only an artist but also a role model. You found your path, blaze through it, keep growing and yet still remember your roots.

Keep up your good work, enjoy your exponentially increasing lunch money, and most importantly keep being the awesome person you are :)

Yours sincerely,

Fangirl since day 1

Day 29: The one that inspires me

Inspiration comes in every shape and form. At least, that's true for sappy fanfic. That lightbulb moment can come from reading simple quotes and listening to song lyrics. It can also come from little moments to a dramatic love story unfolding in the classroom. 

However, if I have to answer about the other meaning of inspiration - the motivation to keep going - then it's a different story. If you asked me this question around 6-7 years ago, I'd probably answer Merry Riana. My father bought me her biography book and through that I found a lot of things in common. That shared situation made me think about how if she could get over her problem in even more difficulties, I should be okay too.

Now, that answer no longer applies to me. If anything, the only one that "inspires" me now is my family (or is it my pride?). Given the current condition of my family, I know I have to graduate quickly and help my parents. Clouded with that thought, of course I have to go on even when I don't want to.

So, that's that. The same thought has also been affecting decisions I make these days. One inspiration will definitely affect many other aspects of your life. 

Day 28: What is something/someone I miss?

First of all, I'd like to apologise for the non-consistent font. My laptop broke, so I have to make do with my handphone. So, until early January, the appearance of my posts will be different from my usual posts. 

Getting on to the content, what/who do I miss?

On the most superficial level, I miss home-cooked food and spicy food in general. Since coming to Busan, there is almost no food that can give the same satisfaction as McSpicy or the sinfully good "nasi sambal". Stomachache that comes the day after is worth every bite 🤤

Going a little deeper, I miss my family, especially my brother. It's been almost half a year since I last saw him, and there will be another half a year before I can see him again.  I also miss my old friends. Them being scattered all around the world makes meeting all the more difficult. Some are already working too, so schedule will be a problem even if we are in the same country.

Deep down, I think I miss simpler times. When I didn't have to worry about graduating, financial problems and whatnot. As I grow up, I become such a worrier that oftentimes I can't fully enjoy experiences that are hard to come by. It's not anybody's fault but mine. So, I guess, what I truly miss is not the times. It is my mindset from back then.

Day 27: If I could have any super power, what would it be?

When I first read today's topic, I thought of the more mainstream powers first. The ability to fly, read minds, teleport, you name it. But do you know what's the greatest of all?

Day 26: Weird things I do when I'm alone

I'm very much a normal person. I also don't have much opportunity to be alone. I can only remember one "weird" thing I did when I was the only one in the dorm room:

Recording myself 

lip-syncing Day6 song 

while

 holding the broom as a microphone

P.S. Why is it that as the days go, the posts get shorter ._.

Day 25: If I were an animal, what would I be?

Disclaimer: Am neither an animal expert nor an enthusiast, this blog post may contain a lot of inaccuracies. 

I'm probably a tortoise. 

It is famous for having their home wherever they go - I, too, am a homebody. I can spend many days at home, finding new activities regularly. The only difference is that tortoise must bring their shell everywhere as it very much a part of their body, while I still do need to go out once in a while. 

Tortoises also hide themselves in their shells upon facing danger. Inside shell = safe zone. Though I'd rather for it not to be true, I have to admit that I tend to pull myself out of uncomfortable situations. I also need a LOT of time to warm up to unknown territory, because the unknown is always scary. 

Having said that, I'd love to adopt the more positive characters of the tortoise. Just like the childhood fairytale, the tortoise was steadfast and ended up winning in a seemingly impossible race to win. That kind of steadfastness is something admirable, be it at work or in relationships with anyone. 

Day 24: How do I see myself in 10 years?

Woah, never thought that I ever have to blog about this. A few years ago, my roommate found me in our room crying. When she asked me the reason behind my tears, it was simply because I couldn't imagine the possibly bleak future.

The past 16-17 years have been filled with mostly certainty. I have school to go to. But now that I have to really start adulting, the future seems a lot more daunting. I mean, the thought of it already scared me when I was still in JC, what more now! There are so many things to sort out: job, family, house, investment and many more!

Ideally, in 10 years, I would have built a new family and work a cushy 9 to 5 job. But what I can actually imagine better is me being a housewife (I know, that's such a non-ambitious dream). Maybe it's mostly because that's what I see growing up, mothers around me are mostly housewives. Then again, there are so many variables in arriving at that future. 

Who knows what the future holds? Instead of fretting over the future, I am now trying my best to enjoy every day. Worrying doesn't solve any problem after all.